Tonight is metal night, I just decided it. That�s what happens when you balance �I feel fine despite everything� with those of your friends around you in which sucky things have happened. Metal night. Metal Church, Manowar, Megadeth, (the M�s must be fairly represented. All should bow on their knees to the letter �M�. �M� has lovingly brought you �metal� and the many bands bearing that alphabet letter with their moniker.. See? �Moniker�. . ) I want to hear those screams. You know the ones, high, long, falsetto, the products of blown-out hair and too-tight pants. When I look for �overkill�, I don�t mean �urge�. �Nu-metal� can go bob on my pasty shanks.I�ve come up with a new theme for another amusing comp. Well, I guess subject-wise it�s not amusing: Dead. Or maybe death, or maybe both. The last one was �balls� since there are sooo many songs out there about men�s genitalia in it, and I just couldn�t help it. That�s my defense anyway.
Speaking of comps, (besides me and my retarded theme ones), my friend James has been trying to start this group. He just wants to get about six or so people together to form this little comp. trading group, and maybe 3 times a year, each member makes a comp and sends it to the others in the group. It�s geeky, but I�m down with it. If anyone else is interested, drop me an email at [email protected] and maybe we can get trading soon.
�The Wicker Man� by Iron Maiden. Did you know that was a Hammer Studios film? One of their color ones with Christopher Lee.. A pretty amusing film. I wonder if that�s where those kids got the idea for the �Burning Man�?
�I am an outcast on the path of no return
Punisher and swordsman
I was born to burn
Black Wind always follows
Where my black horse rides
Fire's in my soul
Steel is on my side�
You realize the world is just not the same when you resort to Peer to Peer programs for music and a search for the word �satan� turns up a bunch of South Park shit and �killer� gets you rap.
�Know what it's like
When you're taken for granted
There goes your life
It's so underhanded
If the man with the power
Can't keep it under control
Some heads are gonna roll
Some heads are gonna roll�
Anyway, I suppose this has no point. What point would I make right now?? Life sucks, feels sucky, tomorrow maybe, it feels tolerable. And the only thing there is to do is to keep on keeping on. Or don�t. Don�t if you want to. Sit still, die, whatever. I�m afraid to say that none of it matters if feeling like you �matter� was keeping you going. It�s not like that, and it�s not depressing, negative, sad, etc. It just is. And really, if you look at it like that, it�s actually liberating.
�Alive and well in this livin' hell
I survived it all, now it's time to tell
Can you hear me
Do you hear me
Once a tattered soul on bended knees
With one hand to God, I felt the devil's breeze
I begged help me
Won't you rescue me
One promise dishonest
And everything will change
I rule the ruins with passion and pain
I rule the ruins
Sinner or saint
Fortune or fate�
